Sunday, July 18, 2010

moving the blog

so i like blogspot. I really do. But its lacking a few things that I need. Wordpress has them though it's going to take a little getting used to. I'll try and transfer these older blogs over there but we'll see how it goes.
The new blog is:


Hope to see you there.

Friday, July 16, 2010

oh yes you are

This is from my journal on June 19th 2009.
Place: Aldama Base Camp

God you are powerful.

God you are beautiful.

God you are more than I can imagine.

God you are intricate and architectural.

God you are loving.

God you are wrathful.

God you are jealous.

God you are satisfying.

God you are outside of time.

God you are too much for me to comprehend.

get out

So there are things in my head that seem to be stuck there.
I could use a really good crow bar to get them out.

There are things in my heart that seem to be stuck there.
I could use a really good piece of dynamite to get them out.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

come alongside me

I look into the crowd.
What are the stories here?
What are the lives that are behind those faces?
How did they end up in front of me on a Sunday morning?
What happened this week?

Who lost their jobs?

Has someone suffered the loss of a loved one this week?

Cancer?

Did someone runaway from home?

Middle of a divorce?

How am I supposed to do anything that will affect their lives for eternity.

At the same time, I have to ask:

Who started a new job?

Were there any births this week?

A clear report from the doctor?

Did the prodigal come home?

Marriages reconciled?

These are just a few questions that would unmask a world of joy and pain behind the facades that show up on a regular basis.

Man this is tough.
Just go up there and preach.
Sure. Ok.
Praise God.

Saturday, July 10, 2010

simple enough

Be a good kid.
Do the right things.
Here's a list.
Just follow them.
If you were bad, don't be bad anymore.
Simple.

Legalistic.
Dead.

Follow after Christ.
Love people.
Give of yourself like He gave of Himself.
Disciple others.
Run to joy and don't settle for less.
Complicated.

Freedom.
Life.

Friday, July 9, 2010

you give birth to nothing


Now before all the mom's out there get mad at me and start talking about the hours put into labor and pain etc.
I'm talking about spiritual birth.

If you have ever been to the Big Feed or done a mission trip with Way of the Cross Ministries this is an important story to read. It’s a little long but it explains an answer to a question that many of us leave with after doing a mission trip with WOTC.

You see, the mission trips and Big Feed are only a few days long but in the span of those few days, hundreds, if not thousands of people will pray to follow Jesus.

The question is a question about discipleship.
I’ve heard it many times at the Big Feed.

“What happens to the new Christians after we leave?”

In fact, my first year at the Big Feed me and Mr. Valdes talked about this very topic.

It seemed like we came in as a Christian whirlwind and then took off leaving the new believers to fend for themselves.

It just didn’t seem right.

I hope that I have done justice in my retelling the story shared by Bro. Ben during a church build at the Way of the Cross Ministries Aldama Base Camp. Also a special thanks to Ms. Katy Spence for editing the story.
Enjoy.

The group (Christ Community Church and WOTC missionaries) was wrapping up morning church service after hearing some awesome preaching by Pastor Tiburcio en espanol (Indira translated for us) and Bro. Ben started to tell us a story…

He said that many people ask what is done about the people who receive Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior AFTER everybody leaves from the mission trip.

Bro. Ben told us how a very prominent preacher and the staff from a mega-church came to use the WOTC facilities for some very important church meetings. They told him that if he was quiet he could sit in and listen in on the meetings.

He was very happy about this.
He looked up to this pastor.
He felt privileged.

So for the first few meetings he served them in their meeting room. Bringing them water, food and doing odds and ends for them. And finally they asked for Bro. Ben to show them what he did for the people in Mexico.

He said sure, I’d be glad to.
So they loaded up in the bus (kind of an RV with a stage that would come off the side and it had a custom cross that could be propped up on top of the bus along with a thrown together PA system) and they went on a preaching run.

They had several meetings that day.
The pastors were ecstatic and all got up to share the gospel at the different sites.
It was incredible.

Bro. Ben was overjoyed. It was a huge harvest; so many people giving their lives to the Lord and as Bro. Ben puts it, “I just drove the bus, I didn’t preach that day I just drove the bus. God told me to drive the bus so that’s what I did as I carried these mighty men of God.”

Big things happened that day.

The next day Bro. Ben went to their meeting and the well known preacher man in front of his staff told Bro. Ben,

“Ben, yesterday I was disappointed in you.”

Bro. Ben thought he was joking, after all, many people came to know the Lord in just one day, surely the man was joking!

But he wasn’t.

He told Bro. Ben,

“Ben, yesterday a lot of new Christians were born.

They’re just babies in the faith.

By leaving and not teaching them you’re leaving them out on the table to die.”

This crushed Bro. Ben.

He respected this man and he had just told him that what he was doing was a disservice to the Mexican people.
It hurt.
He stopped attending their meetings and eventually, they packed up and left for their church and left a very sad and crushed Benjamin Butler in Harlingen.

He felt rejected.
He felt that the work that he was doing was now in vain.
He knew that he was doing what God told him to do.

He walked around sad and depressed and for those of you that know Bro Ben, you know that that is not the type of man that he is.

Shortly after this incident a friend of his brought a group down from his church in Oklahoma to do a mission trip and they were staying at Ben’s house.

His friend recognized immediately that Ben was not happy.

Finally he said, “Ben, what’s the matter? It looks like somebody has stolen your joy.”
Bro Ben told him what happened with the preacher and how he was just so upset that he was leaving all those new Christians out there with no one to fend for them as baby Christians.

The man looked at him and said,
“Ben, look at me.
That is the most arrogant thing I’ve heard you say.
You need to realize something, when you go out there and drive that bus and preach the gospel,

You give birth to nothing.

That is the power of the Holy Spirit at work in their lives and those babies…
They are God’s babies.

God doesn’t leave his babies out on the table to die.

He is going to take care of them.”

At this point he looked at Pastor Tiburcio (the man who had just shared a passionate and loving message about Jesus as Messiah) and told us that he was one of the first converts that WOTC had evangelized.

Pastor Tiburcio taught the WOTC Bible School for many years.
Now he’s a pastor of different churches in the area.

You see, God doesn’t leave his babies out to die.

God has trained up men and women in Mexico to serve the church and grow them from spiritual infancy.

So the next time that you go on a trip with WOTC and you see hundreds of people coming to know the Lord and you wonder, what’s going to happen when we leave here and there’s nobody here to take care of them?

There is somebody taking care of them.
The One who saved them to begin with.
We can’t grow them with our teaching no more than we can save them with our words about the Bible.
That’s the job of the Holy Spirit working in their lives.
God will raise up men and women there to minister to them.
WOTC says this confidently after years of evangelizing in Aldama, Mexico where they have seen many pastors raise up from among the people to minister to their needs.

It’s awesome.
God is moving.

We give birth to nothing.

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

connecting the dots


Ever feel like there are times when things just come together?

I know we spend most of our lives feeling like things will NEVER come together but then there are those moments when you just kind of sit back and say:

"Hmm, that's pretty nice"

This afternoon was one of those moments.

I was reading in Psalms and the little letter deal on the verse (you know the little letters that mean go to the bottom of the page and most of the time you ignore it because you know that if you go to the bottom of the page its just going to tell you to turn to another part of the Bible and you know that if you do that then you're going to forget about what you're reading at that moment but if you do follow it then you go on a quest through scripture and it's awesome. Phew. ok. done with that. Longest parenthetical statement ever.) and it led me to Isaiah 40 and I was struck with verse 8
ESV style:

"The grass withers, the flower fades, but the Word of our God will stand forever"

That was cool just by itself.
But that was just dot #1.
Earlier in Isaiah 40, verse 3 specifically it says
"A voice cries: "In the wilderness prepare the way of the Lord; make straight in the desert a highway for our God."

If you're familiar with John the Baptist this is the passage that he quotes when he says that he is like a voice crying out in the wilderness. So my wheels (metaphorically speaking mind you) were already turning thinking about John the Baptist and the gospel of John.
Dot #2.

Then in verse 7 of Isaiah 40 it says
"The grass withers, the flower fades when the breath of the Lord blows on it; sure the people are grass."

Ok, so people are grass.
We wither.
We die.
We don't last very long in the grand scheme of things.

There have been many great people in the past who have changed the world.
Yet they all have died and have been mostly forgotten.
Thats Dot #3

Last night me and Jake were talking about one of his textbooks from his New Testament class at HBU. In the book it mentioned that Jesus Christ, whether you like him or not, has had a tremendous impact on history over the last 20 centuries.
2,000 years.
He has withstood the test of time and still manages to be a central part of society despite his departure from earth over 2,000 years ago.

So why is this?

Like I said, my mind was already thinking about John the Baptist and the gospel of John and I remembered that John 1:1 says

"In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God."
if you fastforward to verse14 it says

"And the Word became flesh and dwelt among us, and we have seen his glory, glory as of the only Son from the Father, full of grace and truth"
and that would be dot #4

Hmmm.
So lets see.
The Word of our God will stand forever.
People are like grass so we wither and die.
We don't stand the test of time.

In the beginning was the Word.
The Word was God.
The Word became flesh among us.
Jesus.
He is killed.
He rises from the dead.
He stands the test of time.
The Word of our God will stand forever.

"That's pretty nice."